I'm not happy with myself!
All the weight I worked so hard to lose is back and I know exactly why - I got lazy. In 2010 I got tired of being tired, of not having energy, of not being comfortable in my clothes and of seeing myself in the mirror. I have a daughter, who was 8 then, and she is on the chubby side still. I knew I wasn't being a good role model of health and fitness. To top it off, in 2009 I was diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis which is a gross disease that no one wants and I think I'm way too young to have. I was put on Prednisone to help my UC, and while it did help, it made me hungry all the time.
First I started attending Zumba, I swam laps at my university's pool, I cut out the fast food and before I knew it, I was a calorie counting queen. I could tell you the calories in anything! I lost weight, I felt better, I was happy... and I was obsessed.
In 2011 I went on two back to back vacations (lucky me) and I lost my obsession. I refused to count calories on vacation and when I came home, it was almost impossible.
A year later, I'm back where I started.
I've tried counting calories again and it makes me cranky. I've tried to increase my workouts but honestly, I'm just too lazy to up what I already do. Plus, I want to get rid of my UC. I would love to not be dependent on $400 a month medicine.
So I bought a juicer. I'm not on a juice fast - yet - but I've started replacing my breakfasts and dinners with a mix of juiced fruits and veggies and then eating some kind of lean protein for lunch. It's rough. But I'm down 3.6 lbs in a day, so that's encouraging enough!
Let's see if I can repair myself the natural way.
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